Half of my heart

My best friend is leaving. Not moving out of the apartment to a new one, or down the street..or 10 minutes away...or an hour drive away, but a plane ride away. Bertha is moving officially to Florida on Saturday. It feels absolutely surreal to me. Like, its weird because its Wednesday and I know shes leaving this weekend but at the same time, I cant believe shes leaving this weekend. Not only have we been best friends since middle school but we have lived together for the past almost 2 years. She is going from being across the hall from me to a 2.5 hour plane ride away from me. I do not want her go to. It is selfish of me but I cant help it. I want her here with me..let me rephrase that, I NEED her here with me. There is not one other person I know that I can literally turn to for EVERYTHING the way I can with her, not one other person I can always count on to go to the mall with me, to listen to my crazy stories, to be the person beside me when the crazy stories are happening, to have boy talk with me, to be there with me and my family, to be the person I text at 11 pm on a Tuesday night when Im bored and at work, the person I can call at 5am when the guy Im dating is not in bed anymore and I think he is dead, the person I can count on to dress up with me no matter where we are going, the person I can count on to be paparazzi with me, to run the stage with me, the person to experience living on my own with...the person that no matter what I do, she looks at me with loving eyes that only a best friend would look at you with through thick and thin. Im not trying to make this about me but I just have this feeling of being scared...and I know she is too, I mean she has her family there but no other good friends...at least here I have Court, Mer, Jenna, Meg, Shenoa, Bek, my new roomies etc... but its like, time goes on and everyone is growing up and a lot are going away from each other..I guess this will be the biggest test for our friendships, because being apart physically does not have to mean growing apart emotionally. I love my friends so much, I cant even call them friends, theyre my family.